Anonymous asked: I feel so alone at the moment. I've been in recovery for anorexia for most of this year, yet I am still feeling very stuck as if I'm going around in circles. If my weight goes up even the slightest amount, I feel absolute self-disgust, loathing & worthlessness & haven't been able to make progress in gaining. I worry about the numbers and whether I am sick enough, am constantly restless and want to believe that this struggle is worth it. I worry weight gain will only make me hate myself more.

Hmm…what confusion!  You’re in recovery, yet wondering at the same time if you’re sick enough?  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I had the same contradictory thinking…but just look at that for a second. What do you want more?  To be recovering, or to be sick enough?  Everything that you do is either supporting your recovery or your eating disorder.

The one thing you have to do is STOP weighing yourself.  You’re sabotaging any possible progress by stepping on the scale.  As long as your judging yourself by a number, you can never recover.  You must stop.  You’ll never win with the scale.

It is your choice whether or not you will hate yourself because of weight gain.  Weight gain can’t make you feel any certain way.  You allow yourself to think yourself into self-hatred.  You have more power than you’re giving yourself credit for.  Remember - what you think, you feel.  ♥