June 2012
You are a very inspiring person. I hope to one day be as recovered as you. Stay strong, keep beautiful lovely.
Awe thanks, dear. Recovery IS possible. For everyone. ♥
hi, i've been dealing with my binge-eating disorder since i was about 8. recently, i've decided that enough is enough and it needs to stop. but whenever i eat food, i immediately have that feeling like it needs to get out of my body. i wouldn't exactly call it nausea, it's just like my stomach feels like it's going to reject it one way or another. is that normal in the beginning stages of recovery?
It could be psychological. You could be experiencing the desire to rid yourself of the food for fear of weight gain or something? Sometimes eating disorders can also cause acid-reflux, which can give the feeling of food forcing its way back up your throat.
I would talk to a doctor about it and get checked out just in case. Better safe than sorry. Congrats on your recovery journey! ♥
i love your blog<3
thanks!!! ♥
“Goodbye, said the fox. And now here is my secret, a very simple secret. It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye.”
—Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince
I have been in about 15 treatment centers, from outpatient to residential. I was in recovery for 9 and half months--the longest I have ever been. I think I've begun a relapse as of about a month ago. I don't know what to do. Everyone thinks I'm still doing well and to tell someone would mean that I failed. I cannot go into treatment again because all the treatment centers in my area know me and I've even been kicked out of them. I have no idea what to do.
Here’s the thing - you don’t fail until you stop trying. To not reach out and ask for support is to give in to your eating disorder. Telling someone is the opposite of failure - it is actual proof of the progress you’ve made! Relapses are not the end of the world. They are valuable learning opportunities about what areas of your life need more attention.
You may or may not have to go back into a treatment center. Outpatient might be enough for you this time around. But reaching out is a part of recovery - not of eating disorders. You’ll never be back at the beginning. You can’t unlearn and un-grow. You’re stronger than ever, despite feeling weak. I promise. ♥
how long did it take you to get your period back? i'm over my goal and still waiting :(
Some people get their’s back when they return to their healthy weight. Some people take a lot longer. Some people never get it back. It’s all very personal and depends upon the severity of the illness, the length, the age at which is developed, etc. Be mindful of your nutrition as well as exercise (as too much can cause the loss of your period). Keep optimistic. Focus on what you can control in your recovery. Best wishes. ♥
