January 2012
December 2011
This blog is amazing. You are amazing! People like you give me hope :) You're making such a difference to people's lives and I hope you realise how important you are.
Awe thanks!! Just opened up your blog and it looks pretty awesome too! Love and hugs! ♥
You're awesome!
So are you! ♥
same anon that asked about insomnia. Even if I decided I needed help, I don't know how to speak up. But at this point I don't even want to. I'm already fat and they'll make me eat and get even fatter. I'm not even skinny enough to get help. I don't want help. How can i make myself get help when I know it will just make me fatter and sadder?
First, you have to find someone safe. You can be more open with someone who is non-judgmental and has your best interests at heart (like a good therapist would). Then…you just open your mouth and let it spill out. This may take time. It took my about a year in therapy before I began to really talk about the core issues. That’s OK.
If you’re already overweight, then nobody will make you gain weight. But chances are, you’re view on your body is skewed. Nobody wants to make their clients fat. Treatment is about getting your body to its healthy weight. If you work with a treatment team, you will have a nutritionist included who will help you battle through your meal plan and your fears.
What is “skinny enough?” Think about it this way: People get vaccinations when they are young to prevent them from getting serious illnesses. Getting treatment early on in an eating disorder is like getting a vaccine. It could really boost your odds of full recovery. Why would you wait until you were already deathly sick, or have done irreparable damage to your body to get help? Your ED-self will never allow you to think that you are sick enough. You could be given 5 days to live and your ED-self would say, “Nope, not yet.” That’s just the nature of the illness.
Recovery is hard work, and sometimes it really sucks. But you’re already miserable…so why not be miserable and working towards the eventual, true freedom and joy that come with recovery? You deserve it.
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Thanks for your reply. But do I *have* to have an ED referral/get anyone else other than the counsellor involved to get better from this? Due to the nature of my family, I can't get help from outside agencies until I'm 18, which is two years away. Or can I do this myself/some help from the counsellor?
No…it isn’t required, but getting help from someone specifically trained in eating disorder treatment will probably increase the chances of full recovery. School counselors do have knowledge about eating disorders, but may or may not be competent in treating them.
Where do you live? I’m in the US and I know that minors under the age of 18 can get treatment without parental consent under certain circumstances. I really suggest talking about all this with your counselor. Talk about your struggles, what you want, what your fear is. Lay it all out on the table and then see what she/he says.
Best wishes ♥
“Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around.”
—Cameron Crowe
since my ED got bad and I just stopped eating altogether, I haven't been able to sleep or at least it's really hard to get to sleep. Is this mental or physical? Like is it a problem with my body or do I just have too many thoughts?
Insomnia, hypersomnia, and other problems sleeping can definitely be caused by eating disorders. But you stopped eating altogether?? Trouble sleeping is the least of your worries. You are in severe danger. Please, please, please seek help from a doctor, therapist, nutritionist…or all three. It may seem like you can subsist on next to nothing for a long time…but you could be doing irreversible, unseen damage to your body as I type this. Everyone deserves to be healthy and happy…and recovery IS possible.
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I'm not sick to have an eating disorder (this isn't denial, it's fact) but I sometimes struggle with disordered eating behavior. I don't think I can do recovery, but I know if I go on the way I am right now, I think I'll be sick and unhealthy. I'm currently seeing my school counsellor and while I've made progress on other issues, I've remained stagnant on this eating issue. Physically, I'm healthy. What do I do? Thanks in advance.
What is sick enough? I’m not saying you are in denial…but thinking you aren’t sick enough is a hallmark trait of EDs…or disordered eating, however you want to classify your behaviors.
Are you talking about your eating issues with your counselor? Because that’s the first step. Also…I don’t think you can make progress if you don’t at least think it is possible. That keeps you in a bit of a bind, don’t you think?
Don’t wait until you’re unhealthy to start working on things. It’s a hell of a lot harder. Trust me. You deserve happiness and health NOW. Ask your counselor for some referrals to ED specialists in your area. You need to figure out what is at the root of your eating behaviors.
Best wishes ♥
