falling-d0wn-the-rabbit-h0le asked: Hi, I was clinically diagnosed with anorexia nervosa two years ago, I've been through years of therapy and my weight is now healthy and stable. The only thing is I never really stopped purging. At my worst I would purge 7-8x a day and ate only 500 calories max. After weight recovery everyone thinks Ive stopped. I'm really smart and I know how to get around it without anyone noticing . But lately it's becoming more and more frequent and I hate it. Do you have any advice? Xo

Hi dear.  I hope you’re still working with a treatment team.  Purging is so terrifyingly hard on the body.  I’m sure you know, but it never hurts to be reminded that you can die at any weight from purging.  It is not uncommon for people to bounce back and forth between periods of starvation and periods of purging.  Your weight may be healthy now, but your behaviors are as dangerous as ever.

My advice is to get yourself into more intensive treatment.  If you need constant supervision to keep you safe, so be it.  You are WORTH it.  You do not have to live this way…and I hope that you don’t continue to.  Your story can become one of strength and survival.  I have no doubt.  ♥

Anonymous asked: Anorexia has grasped me again

Let’s rephrase…and now take this with an open mind and with love…

You made some choices that allowed anorexia back into your life.  So what are you going to do about it?  You are the only one who can save you…if you indeed want to be saved.  The decision is yours.  ♥

livleeny asked: You are so amazing and inspiring! I love your posts! I went from an anorexic to recovery and believed life couldn't be better. At least not until two years ago where I became overweight and was diagnosed with depression and PCOS. A part of me really feel like relapsing but another part of me knows that relapse will only serve to make me more miserable. I'm not fully recovered yet but I hope to be soon...

Awe thanks, dear!  It sound like you’ve made some wonderful shifts yourself!  It’s ok to be tempted by your eating disorder….the fact that you’re are, but saying no anyway, is a mark of incredible progress.  I’m so happy for you!  You’re absolutely right.  It is guaranteed that your life will become more miserable if you turn back to your ED to cope.

I haven’t had experience with PCOS, but I’ve had plenty of depression experience…and it is not the end of the road.  I know you’re in a lot of pain now.  Try not to judge yourself on top of it.  You’ve already proven to be strong and capable.  You will get through this as well.  Best wishes!  ♥

thisheartinmyhands asked: Hi there. Last fall I struggled a lot with calorie restricting and exercising and I finally decided to try recovery around Christmas time. The thing is, I don't really know if I still have a problem. I'm eating again and I've gained 8 pounds, so I think I'm fine. But lately I've been feeling so weak and dizzy and my arms and legs keep going numb and my friends think I still have a problem. So I guess I'm trying to figure out if I'm not starving or exercising do I still have an eating disorder?

I believe that if you are still, and quiet, and go deep within yourself, you will know if your eating disorder still has a grasp on you.

Regardless of that…you’ve got some physical symptoms that aren’t normal and definitely suggest something is going on.  Sometimes are views of restricting and exercising or so far off from “healthy” that we really don’t see our behaviors as extreme.  But that doesn’t mean they aren’t dangerous.  You symptoms should not be ignored.  Please make an appointment with your doctor so you can discuss them.

Typically, recovery from eating disorders take a long time, especially when you’ve been using the behaviors for a year or more.  I don’t know how long you struggled, but I would be wary of you feeling you’ve recovered within 6 months.  Again, it’s not impossible…but just be cautious.  Make an appointment with an eating disorder therapist.  Talk about it.  Be honest.  See what you can come up with together.  ♥